It's so late!
I got off work...and FML I had caffine!
URGGG.
And I have to go to Yolkdale tomorrow,
FML.

I had to just let it out, slowly...
Gezz like internal bleeding.
Gahh it's horrible!

People don't really understand.
I have problems too.
I have a bloody past.
I suffer from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).
If people knew..
What it's like to live life with a guilty concience for the rest of your life.
I won't let them.
Never.

It's been hell here people.
And lately...
I've felt like I've been left behind.
I mean I always feel that.
But here's the thing...
It's been more...simutanious?
It's weird.
I saw it coming.
See...
Reckless gene and is good at predicting bad things that will happen to yours truly.
That's a great combination.

My friends are getting into relationships.
And I get left behind.
Friends are leaving me out.
The wrong guys are liking me.
BAHH.
WOOT.
PFFF.
Yeahh right.
Can't it be the right guy for once?
Maybe like most of the time for once?
The guy I do like well...
I can't even totally make sense around him.
GREAT.

This is why at some point I'm better off anti-social.
Won't have to deal with humans.
I can't get too close with anyone.
Many people will think they are close to me.
But really,
I'm limited on words.
But unlike Twitter,
Which has a 140 word limit xD.

If I explode,
That my friend,
Means I'm DEAD.
But the bogeyman will get me.
For sure.
UUHHHGG.
I'm just coding it.

I'm better off dead.
Friends won't have to deal with me.
Family don't have to worry about a lazy bum like me.
I would be erased from human existace.
But I still have that deal.
I'm gonna have to get around it somehow...

Hey GUYSS!
It's been a while,
Canadian Happy Thanksgiving!

No more projects!
I've been worried about two projects for this whole damn week and so my sleeping patterns are seriously FAR OFF!
FREEDOM!
I sleep till like 1 in the afternoon!
Yeahh, I'm THAT TIRED!
But I have work tomorrow....
BAHH

Just grateful that well...
Family, friends...the sun?
Lol I was watching Knowing and Angels & Demons today
SICKK MOVIEESSSS!!
Yeahhh there's just something fasinating about apocalyptic movies!
The Day After Tomorrow anyone?
I loved that movie?
See what I mean?
What a presimist I am ROFLCOPTER!

I haven't been writing lately because well, sort of writer's block.
Except for Rebelling Is Too Hard Too Do All Alone.
Which would be here:[link]
Hahaha, typical.
Another love poem.
Seriously...
BAHHH.
Haha oh noess
FML.

I've only told one person
TEEHEE~
Yeahh no offence any others who are my friends...
LOL you don't need to know yet!

Oh yeahh look at this commercial: [link]
Lol the girl that plays Mizuki from Hana Kimi japan live drama version
LOLZ
Though the idea with Pocky...
We should people, Valentine's Day anyone?
FREE POCKY :]
And the awkward part....UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Imma gonna go,
Watching The Proposal!
YESS :]

Hey guys it's been a while.
So yeah I've been thinking about a lot of things lately.
Well not so much, but yeahhh

Today I did my speech today....on anime?
Man I havent't dont that since grade 7?
It was sorta epic
I was cosplaying as Misa,
And dude I was inprovising everything!
It was that AMAZING
So yeahh you might see some pics of that a BIT LATER.

And at the same time,
I was thinking about semi-formal
I really don't wanna go
Might as well just go to prom!
Will probably be forced too D:
GAHH
Yeahhh myself in a dress..?

NO.
PFFFF
NO.

That's till February,
But mann!
I think it's at that place where Anime North takes place too!
All I know it's in the Pearson Airport area
ANIME NORTH!!!
Yeahh I know I'm thinking about it WAY TOO EARLY D:
But that makes me me, right?
Dates.....bahhhh
BAHHHH
I gotta go before I get sick to my stomach...
BYE <3

This is from my live journal....yesterday
[link]

Man what a brutal day!
I tell you man I tell you D:
All day, all I could really focus on was my audition,
And man, did I blew it up good.
AGAIN.
FUCK.
WHY?!?!?

Short term memory lost,
That's what.
-CRIES-
I memorised all of it....
AND YET I CRACKED!!!
I feel like I'm in grade 9 again on my first audition Dx
Kareem and Steven tried to make me feel better,
It worked, but it doesn't last long.
I am such a preministic person.
You know that saying,
"The worst critic in the world is you."

YEAH THAT IS ME.
YEAHHH D:
Well you know what's the strangest thing though?
I still get into the plays.
Never the one I want,
But still, I DO.
HOW DO I DO THAT??
I dunno, but I have to go now.
Enjoy your turon my filipino buddies, because I am

Deviantart: [link]
Twitter: [link]

Hey guys out there, so this is my FIRST TIME using LiveJournal...in like EVER Yeahh just wanted to make this official,,,
Man it's really LATE at night D: Oh yeahh, I have finished Blood+ anime and that makes me HAPPEH!! VERY HAPPEH!!
BHUAHAHAHA!!

I went to Niagara-on-the-Lake today! With Tita, Uncle, and her friend!
Went to winery...I think I got a LITTLE DRUNK.
I am a whimp when it comes to acholol...sucks.
Aww well...
Had lunch at a place called Little Red Rooster.
Then went around this old fashioned British looking downtown (sorta).
Went to Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory at first!
Got free ice cream from a random set of people, well a family.
It was very kind of them :3
FREE ICE CREAM TASTES BETTER THAN PAID ICE CREAM!
Well they had too much ice cream so the lady gace it to me
It was awkward, but yeahh I took it and said my thank yous.
Of course

Well nothing much after that,
Went back home and eat,
Finished BLOOD+

So yeahh now tomorrow going to CNE for airplane show...
It's gonna be SO crowded!
I was gonna invite a friend of mine to go meet me there,
But it's fine,
He might be busy with this GF.
Whatever, it's fine

Just short...
REALLY TIRED!

FROM LIVEJOURNAL...might use it as official journal instead XD