Okay world right now...
In such a happy mood
I was gonna be typing this out yesterday..
But I was REALLY tired from concert! ^^

Friday the 13th my friends...
Went to the Guvernment to watch The Fall Ball Tour with headliners The Academy Is and Mayday Parade! <3

There were a lot of problems on the way to Toronto
I) TIME
II) GPS being a fag
III) Friend didn't get directions
IV) Food held us up and we eat for like an hour xD

My goodness...LMAOO
Anyway when we got there...
LONG ASS LINE!
Leik OMGOSHNESS!
And then my guy friend...well he was actually the only guy there xD
Wanted to go to the bathroom
What a fail at life xD
You know...
Well we did go...
There was a lobsars...I forgot what that other building WAS CALLED.
So yeahh went there to go to bathroom.

Anyway when we got back the line got shorter...ain't that SICK?
And we went in, and honestly, I felt like a little kid!
It was my first concert...
Okay really I had that feeling since I got out of my my girl friend's parent's car!
And we tried to get merch from the Mayday Parade one...and they ran out of all the good shirts...-sadface-
So we went into the crowd a little bit after putting stuff away...and getting freebies

OH MY GOD IT IS A CLAUSTOPHOBIC'S NIGHTMARE COME TRUE.
Yeahh I sorta am...not enough to like....YEAHH.
Anyway I got split up from one girl friend (okay remember there is four of us, so the ratio was three girls to one guys xD) and like I was like always meeting up with my guy friend and my girl friend.
I felt like a really awkward azn kid again in that crowd...here's a few examples of that:
I)Holding a random guy's hand thinking it was my girl fiend's hand.
II) Getting cussed at by a significantly shorter groupie scene girl.
III) Getting hit by the back of the hand....turning out of be someone crowd surfing...

Anyway TOO MANY TO MENTION!
So yeahh after all of that...
MAYDAY PARADE IS SO AWESOME LIVE
AND THE ACADEMY IS!
WILLIAM BECKETT WAS GORGEOUS WITH SUSPENDERS.
And such, I gots a black t-shirt with sick colours saying The Academy Is!
That's about it....lots of chaos on the way back...
And went back to girl friend's house and had to drop off guy friend once picked up by dad around...12:30ish?
Didn't get home till 12:50...so tired then went to sleep till like 1:30 due to going to work the next day and needed a serious shower.

YEAH THAT WAS MY DAY :3
IT WAS SO SICK AND OMGOSH MY FIRST CONCERT WAS OMGOSHH I LOVED IT SOO MUCH <3

Hey peoples of this world.
I am suffering through internal bleeding.
Like years worth of it.
Please.
End THIS.
FATALITY.
LMFAO.

Sorry, I tried to make that funny...
-Goes to emo corner-
Besides, I'm gonna enjoy the free skins on dA for a while...
LOVES IT :3

Anyway, I'm gonna talk about something...
Yeahh SOMETHING!
So listen up .

Anyway, I've been thinking a lot lately,
Even though I don't have a boyfiend, like at ALL...
There are some strange men that has come into my life.
What would you call them...
Distractions?
They are like...
Nice, whatevers.
Anyway, I think they just pity me.

They hug me, make lots of love jokes.
If I name them...
Lawls, they would kill me XD
It's nice,
But as much as I have a HUGE CRUSH ON THIS ONE GUY.
There are those guys that distract.
Sometimes I wonder xD.
They ain't my type....
Sorreh lovelies :3.

And even though I WOULD SOUND RACIST...
LAWLS.
One brown guy (hahaha...hint and thanks to Elysia...LMAO...it's a friend of mine ), maybe one azn, and two black guys in particular.
What is this?
Crazy people...
I hearts...
But I don't deserve to be loved anyway.
And like I said, at some point,
I think I'm just being pitied.

DAMMIT!
Why can't the guy I want just...
BLEH ALL HUMANS SOMETIMES.
Like. BOO! </3

Hows it been world?
Because apparantly my friends are reading this...
Shall I keep it sane this time?
PFFF YEAHH RIGHTT.

I'm gonna be moody, especially this week.
GAHH.
Mhm my friends...mhm.

Anyway...I've always had those feelings..
Regret...Non-living.
Some people are shocked when they read that.
Like really, it's only because you don't know me that well yet.
Sheese.

I dunno, I wanna get better.
But part of me...just doesn't.
I've felt unloved,
And left behind.
I'm just...I guess in my subconsiousness...
Looking to be love and be loved.
MAYBE?

Like really...
I'm going insane.
LIKE INSANE.
Problems.
Don't know what to do with life.
Don't wanna do anything.
Don't have motivation.
Don't have the heart for life.

Well, ain't that something?
I'm surprised at some point that I'm still alive.
I really am.
Why don't I have done it yet?
Like because I was insane enough to make a pact...
With my ex.
Please, I would, and should have shot myself there.
Actually, preferably I would have shot him.
What a dolt.
REALLY.

Anyway, gonna go...
Don't wanna say anymore..
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