Yo guyss hows it been?
I'm alright, or as alright as humanly possible I COULD BE.

Ahh this week, gonna chill out at my friend's house.
HOPEFULLY?
The week after...Alternative Press Tour with Mayday Parade and The Academy Is...
Yes my LIFE!

My life hasn't been the best, to say the least.
I mean you know..lately I've been trying to diagnose myself and figure out what the effing hell is wrong with me.
Ohhh boy, don't let your friends or family get involved with that diagnosis...because well

Last week..other week..? I was really depressed, to the point I was having these CRAZY SUICIDAL THOUGHTS IN THE BEGINNING OF MY EFFING FOURTH PERIOD CLASS HOLY PHJESUS.
Yes...you can put it like that :3
Oh man, my one girl friend was not there (having NO CLUE where she was).
Really noob...
I joke, I <3's you xD
Well I was gonna go insane and I had no one else to find...but guess who was there...OH MY LIFE. FML.
Quite...engaging conversation till almost the end of the period?
Oh ho. Do I have to encypt another work of art to tell you guys who it is? XD

I dunno...I haven't told ANYONE about it (well just vaguely to whoever) but man WHY ME?!?!
I can't REALLY get into it...but let's say it involves me being stupid...very stupid Dx
It's just like Jam Night all over again...wait that was like a week after BUT!
But at Jam Night I told this azn dude with the super saiyen hair it was sick (which it is...mind you).
I had the guts that my friend didn't (yes the noob LOL)

Mehh. I'll Live.
Maybe.
Loves?
Maybe not?
You decide...
I wish he did XD
<3

Imma jut make this short...well due to the fact that I am really sick:
Fever, bloody coughs, and of course...sniffling?

Gahh getting sick sucks, and partly due to the fact I mut be getting sick due to this damn depression....BAHH.

Today I was suppose to go see Paranormal Activity today with my friends...wait either way I couldn't go due to how yesterday I didn't call my parents when I was out really late from Jam Night. Man FML.

It's so late!
I got off work...and FML I had caffine!
URGGG.
And I have to go to Yolkdale tomorrow,
FML.

I had to just let it out, slowly...
Gezz like internal bleeding.
Gahh it's horrible!

People don't really understand.
I have problems too.
I have a bloody past.
I suffer from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).
If people knew..
What it's like to live life with a guilty concience for the rest of your life.
I won't let them.
Never.

It's been hell here people.
And lately...
I've felt like I've been left behind.
I mean I always feel that.
But here's the thing...
It's been more...simutanious?
It's weird.
I saw it coming.
See...
Reckless gene and is good at predicting bad things that will happen to yours truly.
That's a great combination.

My friends are getting into relationships.
And I get left behind.
Friends are leaving me out.
The wrong guys are liking me.
BAHH.
WOOT.
PFFF.
Yeahh right.
Can't it be the right guy for once?
Maybe like most of the time for once?
The guy I do like well...
I can't even totally make sense around him.
GREAT.

This is why at some point I'm better off anti-social.
Won't have to deal with humans.
I can't get too close with anyone.
Many people will think they are close to me.
But really,
I'm limited on words.
But unlike Twitter,
Which has a 140 word limit xD.

If I explode,
That my friend,
Means I'm DEAD.
But the bogeyman will get me.
For sure.
UUHHHGG.
I'm just coding it.

I'm better off dead.
Friends won't have to deal with me.
Family don't have to worry about a lazy bum like me.
I would be erased from human existace.
But I still have that deal.
I'm gonna have to get around it somehow...

Hey GUYSS!
It's been a while,
Canadian Happy Thanksgiving!

No more projects!
I've been worried about two projects for this whole damn week and so my sleeping patterns are seriously FAR OFF!
FREEDOM!
I sleep till like 1 in the afternoon!
Yeahh, I'm THAT TIRED!
But I have work tomorrow....
BAHH

Just grateful that well...
Family, friends...the sun?
Lol I was watching Knowing and Angels & Demons today
SICKK MOVIEESSSS!!
Yeahhh there's just something fasinating about apocalyptic movies!
The Day After Tomorrow anyone?
I loved that movie?
See what I mean?
What a presimist I am ROFLCOPTER!

I haven't been writing lately because well, sort of writer's block.
Except for Rebelling Is Too Hard Too Do All Alone.
Which would be here:[link]
Hahaha, typical.
Another love poem.
Seriously...
BAHHH.
Haha oh noess
FML.

I've only told one person
TEEHEE~
Yeahh no offence any others who are my friends...
LOL you don't need to know yet!

Oh yeahh look at this commercial: [link]
Lol the girl that plays Mizuki from Hana Kimi japan live drama version
LOLZ
Though the idea with Pocky...
We should people, Valentine's Day anyone?
FREE POCKY :]
And the awkward part....UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Imma gonna go,
Watching The Proposal!
YESS :]

Hey guys it's been a while.
So yeah I've been thinking about a lot of things lately.
Well not so much, but yeahhh

Today I did my speech today....on anime?
Man I havent't dont that since grade 7?
It was sorta epic
I was cosplaying as Misa,
And dude I was inprovising everything!
It was that AMAZING
So yeahh you might see some pics of that a BIT LATER.

And at the same time,
I was thinking about semi-formal
I really don't wanna go
Might as well just go to prom!
Will probably be forced too D:
GAHH
Yeahhh myself in a dress..?

NO.
PFFFF
NO.

That's till February,
But mann!
I think it's at that place where Anime North takes place too!
All I know it's in the Pearson Airport area
ANIME NORTH!!!
Yeahh I know I'm thinking about it WAY TOO EARLY D:
But that makes me me, right?
Dates.....bahhhh
BAHHHH
I gotta go before I get sick to my stomach...
BYE <3